It’s exhausting being your child


What I needed

did not come so it turned into


What I wanted

and when that did not come it turned into


What I accept

will never come


I have never heard “I am proud of you”

I have never heard “you are a good mother”

I have never heard “we love you unconditionally”


Nor have I ever felt it


I love you both without judgment


I will honor you both as the scriptures and Commandments set forth


I love you more then you have ever loved me because I see past your faults and limitations even though that is backward for parent/child, it is Christian 


All of my life you have expected the world to end in the next breath


As for me, I will spend my life telling my children in the next breath how much I love them, am proud of them, and cherish every moment given


The world may very well end but my children will know the peace that took me 40 years to find


With this acceptance, I have taken back my power


With this acceptance, I am proud of you


With this acceptance, you are good parents


With this acceptance, I love you unconditionally



Exodus 20:12 “Honor your father and your mother, so that you may live long in the land the LORD your God is giving you”




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6 Responses to It’s exhausting being your child

  1. Ann says:

    they did a good job raising their daughter. I hope you are finding some peace in your acceptance.

  2. lbotp says:

    It seems to me that you have made lemonade out of the lemons in this situation. And my parents will adopt you anytime.

  3. cathy says:

    I never realized your childhood was less than ‘ideal’, sounds like you’re well on your way to forgiveness and acceptance though. The older I get, the more I come to realize my parents gave me a childhood as close to perfect as can happen. We can’t change our family- all we can do is accept them and move forward…and hope they do too!

  4. dana says:

    wow Am. I can feel the hurt. So sorry. I can sort of relate. I felt loved, but never really heard it too often. Poor moe and ashley hear it all the time. probably sick of it. larkin and chase are so blessed to have you as their mom!

  5. Leeanthro says:

    I am proud of you.
    You are a good mother.

    I have never understood the way some parents act. My father was a really son of a…

    And it wasn’t until I had children that I allowed him back into my life. I let him see them, but I know in my mind that he can’t repair the damage he’s done.

    He owes me an apology, as well as my mother and siblings. But he will never give it. I don’t know that he thinks he was wrong.

    All I can do is be the parent I want to be.

    The good thing is that all kids tend to be better than their parents. So just based on how great you are, just think of how wonderful Chase and Larkin are going to be as adults.

  6. Melanie says:


    You are amazing, and loved by so many. I grew up in a home with a step-father who became my father in every way that I had hoped my own could be and never was and was saved because of his influence. At my wedding I danced with him to Because you loved me and the words said it all. I grew learned to accept but I used the serenity prayer and have it hanging in my living room to remind me every day the things that I need to know Lord. . grant me the serenenity to accept the things I can not change, courage to change the things I can and give the wisdom to know the difference. Amy you are a wonderful mother, friend and advocate to many. You are loved unconditionally in so many ways. I know it’s not the same when you hear it from other’s when deep in your heart you really wanted to hear it from the two people that gave you life but you grew into such a beautiful soul and those hard lessons helped you to know where you can make a difference in many other lives. Hang on to that and know that I as well as many others are so very proud of you!!! Hugs tighter than ever . . .love ya Ames from the Bates family!!!

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