Friday Scattered Thoughts

There are days when I feel like I am getting it all right and moments when I wonder if I am suffocating.

It’s a beautiful day ~ truly one to be enjoyed via a walk or bike ride

Does anyone else get sore spots inside their nose that feel like a pimple and hurt like crazy but you can’t see anything

I often wonder about couples I see in restaurants who sit together and eat and never speak to each other

I am missing 2 of the little people for the babies toy bus and it’s bugging me to no end

I wish I could wear the outfits I see advertised but when I put them on it feels like I am trying so I go back to jeans and t-shirts

The days when I feel discouraged about Larkin’s health I remember that there are mothers out there who would give anything to be in my shoes

Fifteen made me cry yesterday. Some days he can be so sweet

He was in the front seat with me, waiting in a drive-thru, when he turned around to play funny faces with the girls.

All 3 were watching him but Brin was the most engaged and playing back.

He said “I love Brin”

long pause

“I wish I could have had this type of relationship with Larkin”

I choked out an order through tears

Cried as I paid

Sobbed as we sat waiting

Fifteen soothing me with words telling me it was ok.

It’s life as we know it and it’s a great one. ┬áMoments like that make me ache for what is lost and then I take a deep breath and start all over again

I gotta go find those 2 little people and put them back on the bus


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5 Responses to Friday Scattered Thoughts

  1. LJ says:

    15’s mouth may have come from his dad, but his heart came from you ­čÖé

  2. RK says:

    I can’t believe Fifteen is 15. It’s like I’ve lost a couple years somewhere.

    And yes on the sore in the nose thing. Weird. Annoying. Thankfully rare.

  3. Lisa Frerichs says:

    What a wonderful young man you have raised. Hope you find the kids on the bus.

  4. amy flege says:

    yeh, i have days like that too…today had been a bad bad bad crying day…..
    good luck finding those lil missing bus riders!

  5. Zoey's mom says:

    All we can do on some days is take that breath and begin again.Seems to be the story of my life lately.Sending you peace and blessing and good vibes on the little people … hate when that happens.

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