Psalms R Soothing

It’s been an interesting weekend. I am still coming down from it and haven’t put my thoughts into enough order to be able to share properly. As Ms. Scarlett said “Tomorrow is another day”. It’s rainy, cold and quiet around the house. I haven’t felt very good so I was in bed to get warm and I watched TV. Last evening the “Memory Keeper’s Daughter” was on and I had taped it. I’m a weird one when it comes to stories about children/adults with disabilities. I am not interested AT ALL to watch Rosie portray a girl that rides buses with her sister. I don’t want to watch Kirstie Alley act like she has a developmental delay and get married. I find it trite and on the verge of insulting. Everyone is talking about the book so I bought it. I couldn’t get past the first chapter. I just wasn’t into it. Didn’t like the writing and if I am going to stop my day and read, as I often do, I am going to have to enjoy it from the get go. Time is short.

So I watched the movie. It difficult from 3 minutes in. When they showed the delivery of the baby girl (Phoebe) I gasped out-loud and instantly was transported. The baby on the TV had clear features of Down syndrome. She was beautiful!!

I won’t spoil the movie but I do recommend you watch it. It was done very well. I was left with a bad taste in my mouth though. The movie is set in 1964 and yes you can tell me a million times how different things were back then BUT it wasn’t that long ago people. Thoughts ran through my head of how we were, and sometimes still are today, no different then Nazi Germany. Looking for someones version of perfect.

My heart was a little heavier. I went back to my favorite Psalms. Passages I was introduced to as a child by my parents. Passages that still today bring me relief. As a child, I always had a visual of being held in cocoon of warm love when I read the Psalms. I have it in real life with Andy, Chase and Larkin but to know that I am sheltered inside where I am still His child and need his protection and love – is what I needed most today.

Psalm 34:18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Psalm 91:4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.